How it all began

My husband and I met 13 years ago. We met on a website made for kinky people. We knew before we ever met in person that we were going to have an open relationship. It was easy to do this as we were not headed for anything other than Master/slave. We did something wrong though. We fell in love. What did change in our relationship is that I did not have any interest in being with other men. I LOVED hearing about his time with other women though. I would go crazy as he filled me in on the conversations he was having with them. I realized that I would get very turned on by all of this.

It wasn't until many years later I learned there was a name for what we did. I was browsing the internet and came across the word CUCKQUEAN. After reading what it meant I finally realized...this was me! I never knew I wanted a label for it until I had found one! As I did more research I realized this wasn't a very popular fetish or kink. There wasn't a ton of information out there about it. After explaining this to my Master we talked about how this was going to work from that moment on. I realized it wasn't just hearing about the conversations and escapades that I liked, I wanted to watch too. I really got off on the humiliation aspect of it too. If the superior woman would tell me how much better she was than me, how he wanted her more than me, how sex was better with her...those things really were what got me going.

Here recently I have found groups on Fetlife to join, chat groups on kik as well as just talking to people who are into the lifestyle. There are blogs popping up from other cuckqueans and that is what inspired me to create this one. In my next post I will share one of the writings I did about a time when Master was with a superior woman.